Choices.

 This couple of days have been well, I can say rather life changing. After a long while of running away from my problems I've finally come to face them and to really find a solution. There's just been a lot of important decision regarding my life and what direction I want to go.

And honestly, for the first time in a long while I finally feel like I have a plan and that I like it. After all these years of just muddling through everyday just hoping I can get through to tomorrow, I finally feel like I know what I want. 

It's a bit frightening and I have absolutely no idea whether I'm making the right decision or not but it's definitely better than going through day by day doing absolutely nothing. I finally feel happy and motivated to do something. 

Right now, I'm happy. I have my family, the person I love, my amazing friends, my dogs; I am content and so goddamn thankful. I know I have people who support me and that really means so much to me. It feels so wonderful to know that people love me and I really want to do everything in my power to make them happy too. 

Life to me now, I'll just live in the now because I really have no clue what let's say 3 years is going to change and by the time I am 18 I wonder where I'll be and what I'll be doing. But I know I want to be happy. Which is what I want to be now. I don't want to force myself to do something I don't like. I want to enjoy life. 

I really do hope the choice that I'm making is right, for me at least. 

4/4/14 - 5/4/14

Drinks, amazing people, midnight swim. One of the best nights ever.

Happy.

 I just feel so extremely happy. So happy that I have you. So happy that I get to be the one to say I love you, to you. So happy that I can be a reason for you to smile. That I am someone that you love. I'm so happy to be the one that gets to say good night to you every night.

Because it's the little things that means the world to mean. It's every thought of you in the middle of the day that gets me feeling so grateful that I have met you. That I have you in my life and I am damn sure I'm not letting go.

You make waking up from a good dream something good because finally my reality is better than my dreams. Waking up and knowing you're there is just such an amazing feeling, knowing I love you and that you love me. Wow.

Words tend to fail me, and I'm running out of them. But I just wanted to say I'm so thankful for you. And that I love you.